i was born a shy child. it was really difficult for me to interact with people, although i was my true self around the few people i grew up with. most of the time the shyness was mistaken as being self-centred or not having the guts to do things, but i am just shy. i was too young to understand all of this then, but i guess ive grown eh? :P
i kinda hated boys when i was young. almost all of us hate the opposite sex when we were young eh? anyways, i always knew that i would end up being with someone, you know, marry, get kids, that stuff. so i was really really careful about what i do. i always thought of ways i would meet my mr. right. but as i am shy, i just couldn't think of a way.
and then, i was introduced to internet. msn. chatting. lots of people. lots of guys. during the first week, i met a guy who said the stupid "i love you". i was flattered, lil did i know that men (and women) lie on msn. :P anyways, i said no. and i believed that i "broke" his heart. days passed, i fell in love with another guy i met on msn. he's a good person and all, but i was afraid, and shy ofcourse to be with him in person. maybe that is why it didn't work out.
but then, i finished my o levels, i worked in CDC, where i was supposed to interact with people and talk and have guts. and afterwards i went to CHSE where i met a lot of guys, and they aren't scary at all. i must say that eventhough i hesitate sometimes, i can be me around people now. which im actually proud of! although its still easier for me to express myself by writing rather than talking.
i kinda quit msn sometime back. i am tired of the people who say "i love you" so carelessly, without thinking twice. why do they just toss it around like that? i don't understand. i cannot come to terms with that. and thats why, i wrote.
Friday, January 9, 2009
and so i write.
image: trying to play a prank on a teacher
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Internet. Great place isn't it :)
cute post...its great
great post^.^ you're just like me :P
very similar to how I used to be :)
i know you are tired of seeing im like you but im like you too.
i can be friendly to only couple of peoples who are around me......and its easy to express myself in writing then speaking...
i love you. i really do. pakaaaas!
i love you too.. but does that mean you have to quit blogging too :) gain self control dear. don't run away from it. about being shy. its not a big problem (usually am the devil speaking) being shy means u tend to ignore a lot of things your parents wouldn't want you to do. what am trying to say is unlike most of the young energetic and smart girls who are stupid,they do not want to experiment stuff or have experiences like the smart but stupid arses.so being shy is not a problem and yeah there's another side of it as well...
meehun buney ennun "numoshey guraa baarah dhai ganaane eh" hehe... u try to figure it out
anyway i just wanted to tell you that internet/msn is not the place for you to find love. you've got to meet in person, talk in person and spend time together to discover real love. you cannot find it through fibre optic cables.
You = all the people who are "in love" over the internet. (I know a lot of them people read this blog.)
CHSE is a great place for interaction between boys and girls. I think they should mix boys and girls in secondary too. I have never seen fights in chse, well not in my batch. (ive heard they had fights in the batch before your batch.) I think it would definitely reduce the number of gadda vegen ulhey(fight kuran) boys. because boys seem to behave a bit better when they are with girls(they want to impress them!)
ive written too much.
Your truly,
secret msn lover
i had sex on MSN with my first online GF!
You were born shy? I never thought of shyness as a genetic condition before. Anyhow its good that it isn't as bad as Rajesh Koothrappali :P
most of the girls are like that, not all,but when time goes , thinga will be different,U won't be that shy mini... am sure, U are gonna know the truth of this world and ppl.
well, i wasn't a shy a girl ...hehe
i used to discover things,participate in everything in school and all... things were different 4 me..
About love thing,U can't love in internet, have to meet ppl, well mr.right will come for U , just wait.... and see......
i mean u can't find love in internet...(correction)
lol..normally i do write lot of mistakes..hehe
i thought i was the only one like that. ur just like me!! hairaan vejje :O
i still find it difficult to talk with boys eventhough the boys in my class try to talk. they may also think that i m v foni but i dont mind coz i knw that i dun hav the guts.
and ahanah ves faseyha ee talk kurumah vuren liyan.
so suprisin n funny to know there is sumone like me.. heh heh
and the msn part..that's what i thought too. i used to chat with a lot of guys before but now i've 'almost' stopped it :P
heh. chat kuran foooooohi... msn innaanee namehga.. and that.. finding LOVE via internet??? o_O weird!! hehe.. neway.. kewl post..
ahh maybe ur a late bloomer...
internet dho... good place to make friends...for example take this..i mean blogging..bet u met sum intresting people right?
as for shyness.. i'll let u on a lil secret... i was a shy guy before.. no am a big mouth..wonder wat happend?? lol lets juz say i "evolved"
whaat ees theesee
mini nujahaa ehaa madun inna vahthareh. miadhuves canteen ga i saw u and ur grup laughing loudly abt smth :P
and last sem ga ehdhuvahu student's room un ves dhekunymey varah adu gadha koh ulhu adu..u sana and sum boys all in a circle playin cards i think.
ekamaku grup ga ulhey ehen kudhinaa alhaabalaa iru shy hen heevany :P
those guys n gals who spend too much time on msn are just horny social outcasts whose mental capacity dont allow them to think much about anything else but sex...yea i know how annoyin scary it is when ppl u dont even know add u n try to get the groove on..
being shy aint actually a bad characteristic..ppl often call me shy too but their way of interpreting the word is different..i think these days shy means being quite and reserved..n i wud rather be quite n reserved than a party animal, if u knw what i mean ;)
first of all.. photo ga in liyumashaa eliyunumeehakah heyodhuaa salaan aris kuran.
it is not just on the internet; people say it all the time in real life too.itz lost its meaning and strength now.we need a new word to replace it.
maybe ur an introvert.im sure i am an introvert.it is not an easy thing to be like that.so, be yourself.change if you want, but not because they want.
and beware; the guys on msn are either:
a)a horny psychopath.
b)a pathetic lonely boy.
c)a guy who think he can hook up with someone on msn and take it to real life.
d)a really really bored guy with nothing better to do (and probably new to internet and chatting).
e)a guy who have a secret crush on you and then thought he will approach you on msn (shy?)
why am i making this list. i dunno. i think i just cant write a short comment.even when i dont have anything to say. no i do have. about that kids hating opposite sex, i think its something to do with society.nowadays its much better i think.when i was a kid, i considered 'love' as filth. u knw, along with fuck,vagina,penis,breasts and few other 'filth' ive learned by dat time.i never said lady lovely lox.i hated to say that aloud.huh? why am i writing this here.i dunno.why dont i blog about this.ok. so, to be continued on my blog. hopefully..
ps. i love you too.you are the only reason i blog.i saw in a dream that you will start blogging one day. so i started.love you so much.so please dont disappoint me/break my heart. ;)
nice post. you're just like me =)
mihaaru ehentha! ladheh hayaatheh hunnaneekee noon :P
hehe
im proud of myself :P
nyc post :)i was shy wen i was in school.. but guess im not now... things change dear...
internet is a great place for some ppl to make frendz .. but not to fall in love :P:P
i guess we were all really shy when we were young..or maybe "some" of us were shy when we were young.. i was just reminded of some classmates of mine who weren't shy at all.. heheh
i think i agree with that list moyameehaa had made.
i gues the guys who so casually say it has met enough girls who are flattered by it to continue doing so. it probly mustve gotten them what they wanted in the past.
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